Merdeka!!!

Happy Birthday Malaysia!!!

The Proposal

if you're depress recently ... very stressful.... let me tell you... NOW .. I said now!! go to watch this movie!!!!

this is really nice.. watching this movie alone but i felt really great!!! OMG.. all the people in the cinema... no one want to leave even is ended.. can you feel how powerful of this???

from start till end.. all of us... laugh .... and very loud!!! very Loud ... and you won't feel irritating cause .. this really nice movie .. and what you need to do is to laugh!!! ahahhahah that's all

watch it NOW so that you will know what im talking about!!1

hahhaha

I'm sick

I think I am sick!!

Recently i felt tired... and this feel is so weird... deep inside your heart... is not psychically tired... is mentally tired..

Terrible part is I don't even know when this disease comes to me..

Recently really too many things happen and perhaps all these bury bottom in my heart and now.. is getting more and more... perhaps almost explore...

i have no idea how this last .. and when would i be able to solve it..

i have to solve it

i need a solution

i know this can't last long

Deep breath in ... hold .... deep breath out ..... hold...

and

shout.... ....

hoo hoo hoo ... fen comes back !!

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one more month ---->>>> 28!!

well... ... life is so short.. time passing really fast... one more month.. then is 28... Officially 28..

well... 2 more years... 30!!

OMG.. this year ... is coming soon.. every one of us face this right.. not to afraid just that I had so many things are waiting for me..

travel, study, degree, eat, snow ... ... so many so many so many ... how would i gain more time??

and well .. time passing fast and i miss my family also.... dad, although we fight a lot .. but really i care of you and please please i please you .. please trust me!! and please enjoy your life .. love everyone that around you ... life so short and we have no enough time to hate people.. that is tired....

mum, i'm proud of you and proud to be your girl.. let's fighting for better future..!!

Fighting!!

where to go ??

recently... something that interrupt my mind...

6 years ... part time work life
6 years ... full time work life...

total = 12 years.... more accurate is 9 years?? anyway....

now ... look ... me already a not bad girl. I earn money, I have my career... and now ... I am able more affordable to go for my dream...

to get a degree.. to get wishes from friends, families,... during graduation.. this my dream.. well i think this is the time to go ... goal for it...

so many excuses...before

no money ...
worries ...
can not let go parent ...
can not let go boyfriend...

lot lot lot excuses... and even now....

got money
no worries
can let go parent
no more boy friend

... ... ... but

but ... can't let go my career... that's i used 6 years to build.... and for a women who is going to age 30 ... how many 6 years that i would have...
OMG i must be crazy ... to let go.... and go for dream...


well... on the other hand, at the age nearly 30, if now i don't go for it... when will be the best time? I had lose lot times and times don't wait people. No more hesitating..

Choose the school..
register
enrol
wait for news
... ....
get to preparation...

no more waiting.. life is young but times do not wait...

now the time that i can afford .. and now will be the time to go...

friends .. give me you best wishes...

cheers
fen

?? problems to blog

i really go crazy ... i have problems with my blog and i have no idea what's wrong with it...

i can't post any images... and my fen hunger fan will start scolding me... i'm sorry to dear all my fans.. i will try to solve the problems ya...

by the way ... anyone can help??

Wonder Girls V.S. Wonder Baby

OMG this really is a wonder baby!!!!

What if you have her??

see what they did!!!???

creative team family photo... ...

who is this ??? look familiar...!!???

You see .. you see lah... what they did to me???

OMG.. i was so shocked and almost can't regonise it lei...

omg .. thx to my team lo... treat me so "NICE" ahahhahahha

i will keep it!!! hahahhaha

Tim - 사랑합니다 Saranghamnida

i like this also ... touch in your heart and voice so soft.... the music so nice....

also don't know the meaning but really love this...

found the meaning...

사랑합니다 I love you lyrics [korean,English,Translation]
Sunday, February 17, 2008 at 8:48pm
사랑합니다

나빠요 참 그대라는 사람
허락도 없이 왜 내맘 가져요
그대 때문에 난 힘겹게 살고만 있는데
그댄 모르잖아요

알아요 나는 아니란 걸
눈길줄만큼 보잘것 없단걸
다만 가끔씩 그저 그미소
여기 내게도 나눠줄 순 없나요

비록 사랑은 아니라도
언젠가 한번쯤은 돌아봐주겠죠
한없이 뒤에서 기다리면
오늘도 차마 못한 가슴속 한마디
그대 사랑합니다

어제도 책상에 엎드려
그댈 그리다 잠들었나봐요
눈을 떠보니 눈물에 녹아 흩어져있던
시린 그대이름과 헛된 바램뿐인 낙서만

언젠가 한번쯤은 돌아봐주겠죠
한없이 뒤에서 기다리면
오늘도 차마 못한 가슴속 한마디
그대 사랑합니다

이젠 너무나도 내게 익숙한
그대 뒷모습을 바라보며
흐르는 눈물처럼 소리없는 그말
그대 사랑합니다
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English

na bba yo cham gey dae lan saram
huh lak doh ubt shee
wae nae mam ga juh yo
geu dae ddae moon ae
nan him gyub gae sal go man eet neun dae
geu den mo leu jan ah yo

ahl ah yo na neun ah ni lan guhl
noon gil jool man keun bo jal guht ubt dan guhl
da man ga kkeum shik geu juh geu miso
yuh gi nae gae doh na nwoh jool soon ubt na yo
bi lok eun sarang eun ah ni la doh

eun jae gan han bun jjeum eun dol ah bwah joo gaet joh
han ubt shee dwae ae suh gi da li myun
oh neul doh cha ma mot han ga seum sok han ma di
geu del sarang hamb ni da

uh jae doh chek sang ae uhp deu lyuh
geu deul geu li da jam deul uht na bwah yo
noon eul dduh bo ni noon mool ae
nok ah heut tuh juh eet dun shi lin geu dae ee leum gwah
hut dwen barem bboon in nak suh man

repeat *

ee jen nuh moo na doh nae gae eek sok han
geu dae dweet mo seub eul ba la bo myuh
heu leu neun noon mool chuh lum so li ubt neun geu mal
geu del sarang hamb ni da


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Translation

So bad..a person a like you..
Why did you take my heart without my permission?
Im living with so much difficulty
But you dont even know.


I know.. that its not me
That im not worthy enough for even a blink of your eye
But sometimes cant you share your smile with me too?
Even if its not love


*Please turn back just once sometime
If I wait endlessly like this today
Again its the one word in my heart that I cant keep inside
I love you.


Yesterday, I layed my head on my desk
And I think I fell asleep grieving for you
When I opened my eyes, the tears had smudged
Your name and hopeless doodles


repeat *


As I look at your back image
which I got so used to
I say those silent tear-like words,
I love you.

i knw is a sad song also...

My kimchi runaway

I like the kimchi so much

Since I like it so I just go to taste it .... But the kimchi doesn't
like it... It doesn't like me to taste it ... What's a sad ..., I love
kimchi so I should taste it ... That's how my character is ... Well
kimchi scare and runaway ... No more kimchi so should get bibimbap or
sushi ???

New Fen

New hair cut that first time make me big different .. according to my colleague and friend... Many of them said I looked younger.. well.. mean that previously I was looked OLD?

Anyway, now i felt good... Of cause, girl like pretty .. 'm also as normal as that.. just like that..

A reborn Fen... now a good start for new lifestyle ... Jia you .. Fen